Realisation

Today i realised.. Grandpa is still with me.. closer than ever.. i hugged him tight.. he told me that he will never leave me.. standing by my side.. he put is right arms around my shoulder while his left arms pointing the right way to me.. he always smile when i made a mistake.. because that's how humans learn.. i truly believe that he's the one who's always carrying me when i'm going through the hard times.. i was not like who i am before.. i can feel that i'm getting stronger as the days goes by.. Grandpa.. you truly showed me what love is.. This.. is love.. Kong Kong.. I miss you ='(

Yesterday was Grandma's birthday.. thought of giving her a great dinner.. as we arrived Dragon Seafood.. the 2 main dish has already depleted.. switched to Apollo Seafood.. had a nice dinner together with my dad, uncle and my lil sister.. i looked at Grandma.. my heart fills with hatred.. not because of her.. it's because after Grandpa left.. everyone around her treated her as the black sheep of the house.. even her own son.. i mean.. wtf right? You guys treat her good because you wanna give face to Grandpa? Go dinner also didn't ask her to go? Grandma no need to eat meh? Grandma didn't went to God together with Grandpa OK? She's still alive OK!! Mcb Really.. Whenever i thought of this.. i get really pissed.. REALLY PISSED!!!!!!!!!

Today is the last day of the holidays.. i'll be starting work tomorrow.. need to get some stuffs done first before i can get a car.. as i heard from a friend of mine.. he said that next year the Sultan of Brunei will cut off all import taxes on cars in Brunei to celebrate his 40th year on the Throne.. yeahhh.. Don't be surprised if i pull up to your driveway on a sweet looking car.. or rather a grunting sports car =D

I think this would be it.. today it's either i sleep sleep sleep and sleep.. or go fishing.. i think i go fishing will be better.. haha..

-Gone Fishing-

Home Sweet Home

Finally..

I've reached home.. Miri.. It's 1am and i can't sleep.. the reason behind this is there's lots of shit going through my mind now.. it doesn't seem to bug me that much but it does keep me awake.. you know.. sometimes it's those small small stuffs that gets you.. something that you don't see.. it's like a fart.. it's not the sounds that kills you.. yeah.. something like that..

I moved in with my cousins.. the old house doesn't seem right anymore without Grandpa.. everything's a mess.. take my word for it.. Now if only Grandma can move in with me, with that happening, my heart will be calm.. she's living there alone.. she's lonely.. although my uncle's there.. she's still lonely.. that's bother number 1.

Yay! Got my house line installed. Will be getting another streamyx and load balance it so i can have 2mbps combined =D~ my torrents will be a hell lot faster this way..

The office network is in a mess.. when there's budget allocated, i'll surely revamp the office's network and make it a proper one. I nearly got chocked as there's only WPA security on the wireless router. Fuck wireless.. i'm proposing all wired.. wireless sucks..

Gonna work in Brunei after raya.. which is next week.. i'll be assisting the operations manager of the Brunei company.. he'll be delegating some stuffs down for me to handle.. first things first.. the company's quota and the timesheet for the offshore crews.. need to get those done.. so i can get the bruneian work permit.. then i can buy cheapo cars! =D

Don't you feel bad when you're the last person to know about something? I'm not interested in other ppl's business but.. sigh.. well.. as the saying goes.. let dreams be in dreams.. let bygones be bygones.. i feld glad that i took the initiative not to talk about it and stay low and observe.. and voila.. bang.. it got me right between my eyes.. hurts a little.. well.. what to do.. i'm happy the way i am now.. without no commitments.. no worries.. i'm free to do whatever i want.. as long as my wallet says ok.. haha =p how lame..

Thought of going out for a drink tonight.. well.. nobody would accompany me.. while my friends in KL are going to Maison tonight.. Pussy Night in Maison is a heaven.. it's so good.. i get wet everytime i go in there.. Surrounded by girls.. i can honestly say that just by walking to the toilet, you'll get to rub and scrub more than 20 pairs of combination between boobs and arse.. i tell you.. don't pray pray arrr...

I MISS KL.. Where it only took me 1 phone call and i'll be out drinking.. doesn't matter what time of the day.. and also.. all my friends.. i miss you guys.. my heart are definitely still with you guys.. yours truly.. haha.. Miri is a dead town man.. altho called a city.. it still a town to me.. no improvements.. in terms of mentality.. you can't find a girl, walking into a club.. wearing t-shirts and short pants in KL can't you? Not even Ipoh! Damn i was so shocked when i saw a girl.. wearing their pyjamas into Balcony.. a place where guys check out girls and girls try to find their waterfish.. i mean.. come on lar.. grow up ppl!! And the usual / casual clubbingwear that i used to use in KL, Folded Long Sleeves / Short Sleeve Buttoned Shirt with Jeans.. and i'm called an uncle.. HELLO.. ok lar.. don't compare Miri to KL lar.. but if we don't move forward.. how the hell are we gonna grow bigger? we learn from the elders right? Exactly my point.. If i were to choose.. i'm gonna get out of miri man.. FAST.. luckily next week is 'after raya'.. and i'm officially employed.. I'm still jobless now.. crap..

I got a new wallet!! it's small.. it has suffecient pockets for all my stuffs.. it's small! have i mentioned small? small is cute mah.. don't have much money to put in there.. so i got myself a small one..

Hmm.. I miss everything about KL.. (i think i said that alot of times) The drinks here are dirt cheap! Bacardi Limon for RM200 <_< Black Label for RM250 <_< darn..

Friends in miri.. i'm so happy to be able to see all of you here.. had a nice gathering last night over at Kiong's place for dinner.. 2nd round not everyone showed up.. abit disappointed but it's understandable.. expected already.. hehe.. had lots of fun with the gang there.. managed to finish the bottle of Bacardi Limon, was expected to leave 50% there and come back 2 weeks later.. but what the hell.. haha..

I'm happy how things turn out to be for everyone here.. Wish all of you the best in everything you do.. and to my brothers and sisters here.. i got your back yah.. ^^

I think i'll end this here.. i think i can sleep already since everything (well.. almost..) in my head is out here..

I'mma try to sleep again..

Out..